Apologies for not posting an entry in so long, but it's just that I've really had nothing much to say, let alone felt like posting anything... but today I just got some strange surge of energy, so decided to post.
I've been very lethargic of late, not really doing much work in college, not keeping this thing up to date and I didn't even write that article for QueerID that I had promised, basically because I was too chicken-shit and apathetic to write anything for them (it's something that I still think I should have made myself do). So much for my Carrie Bradshaw-esque fantasy! Pretty much everything in my life as slowed down somewhat since I've been going out with A, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, I suppose. It's just that I do miss the whole going out a couple nights a week, or the hanging out with my straight friends in straight clubs, or the whole excitement that used to be there whenever I went out to the G or wherever. I think the whole buzz that I used to have has dispelled somewhat - maybe it's just that I'm a little older (which I don't like to think about) which has led me to reminisce a little, or maybe it's just that I'm feeling a little more settled. The excitement I used to have going out is gone, probably down to the fact that I now have the security of having someone and don't have to think about checking out people, or imagine who I might end up with etc. It's not like I ever really pulled that often, but the whole possibility of it was still there, away in the background. On the other hand, it is really nice to have someone. I just don't want to leave my life, as it was before, behind me completely because I have to remember that if things ever end (which I sincerely hope they never do) I need to be able to survive on my own. And on I ramble still...
I have been getting back a bit to the way things were though, with the total drunk-fest that was the weekend just gone. Went out with Dee & Lou and propmtly got extremely drunk after downing two bottles of quite agreeable wine. We went out to Dakota first, which was packed with people and then onto d two, which I kinda like. The music was very good and there was a good party atmosphere about the place, well at least I thought there was. To be honest, I could have thought that a funeral had a party atmosphere with my level of intoxication. There was lots of dancing and stuff - but the night as a whole is a little blurry. I do remember at one point Dee finding a purse full of money, which we tried to give to the DJ, but who refused to take it off us, probably cause we were wasted and kept asking him to play Girls Aloud, which I don't imagine he was too impressed with :p I wonder what happened to the purse....Dee I'm looking in your direction with a suspicious raised-eyebrow glare.
Clubs and Socs day in college is on this week. I'm thinking about getting involved in the LGB soc and have already volunteered my services as webmaster. Even though I don't necessarily need the soc no more, I still understand that there are other people around who do need it and plus enlarging my already huge social circle, being the popular and stunning person that I am, isn't such a bad thing :p