It was my last day in work today. Ever. I suppose I should feel sad in a way, but to be honest it's kind of a relief. I think it's just because of the fact that I've been working so much in the past few weeks, that I'm actually looking forward to having nothing much to do. I'm starting my PhD tomorrow but I haven't got a clue what I'm doing it on or what I'm supposed to do when I start, but I'm sure it will all sort itself out in the next few weeks. Its like starting school all over again, for the fourth time. I could have probably kept on working just the Sundays, but I felt like I needed to make a complete break. I've been doing the same thing for the past 4 years, so I need to change direction - it was all just getting a little too monotonous for my liking.

In other news, my brother rang me up in work today to tell me that he had found 'something very disturbing' on our bedroom floor - a receipt from the George. I played it off pretty well, acting like it was nothing. He asked me if there was anything I was hiding or if I was "in the fucking closet" or something - all of which I denied. I told him one of my friends must have given it to me. He was silent on the phone until I confirmed that none of them were lesbians or anything. I think he bought it. Its not that Im avoiding the issue, its just that I dont want to tell him yet. The reason? Well, he told my parents that he found it and my Dad immediately started to slag me about it when he picked me up from work, which I pretended to ignore. If my brother is going to do something like that when I eventually come out to him, Im going to have to time it very well. The thing is, I bet he told my parents even before he rang me in work - like you think if he was really serious about it, or had even thought about it properly, he would have waited and asked me face-to-face when I got home. And I'll tell you this much - I was shitting myself all day in work about it, but thankfully it seems to have gone ok. I havent seen my brother yet though. Hopefully he wont bring it up again.

Dave's headed off to Wolverhampton this morning. He'll be gone for a year. Im going to miss him, as Im sure everyone else will. Dave, if you're reading this - soapy ;)